8 Months



Well Chase and I are finally done with the "construction and design" of our new little nursery.  We're really quite proud of it considering we had very little to work with.  Surprisingly, Chase has quite an eye for design and helped out a ton.  We love it so much we like to just sit in there and look around.  We still can't believe we are going to be parents in about a month.  So hooray for us!  Happy days!! I hate putting pictures of me on here and don't think there will be anymore until I'm back to "normal," not pregnant that is.  Pictures are just too unbearable to look at when you've gained 35 pounds.





We decided we didn't want to go the pink route and went for all the colors of the rainbow with an emphasis on red.  I'm just sick of seeing so much pink.  I also made her a blanket.  Look at me...I've become all domestic.  Up close you can tell that it's VERY homemade, but I'm proud of myself nonetheless.  You can just call me Martha Stewart if you please.  The one I made is the ugly one I am sleeping with.



Chase really got into the whole construction of the nursery and had many pointers.  I was surprised to find that he even had an opinion.  I was looking at strollers on eBay and he put his foot down and said "Sadie is not going to have a stroller with some other babies spit all over it."  Well, they're a heck of a whole lot cheaper!  That's for sure.  I just think it's cute how protective he already is of his little girl.  How exciting.  We are going to parents in one month!!!! 



I am just about ready to give birth.  I don't care how scary or painful it's going to be...I'M READY!!!  BRING IT ON!!!  I am sooooo sick of being pregnant.  No one told me I was going to be this uncomfortable, and if they did I either don't remember, or didn't believe them.  Chase and I feel totally prepared for her arrival, despite the fact that we still haven't taken a tour of the hospital or found a pediatrician.  I have looked under our insurance and there are about a billion doctors to choose from.  How on earth can I make this decision?  I don't want to go around interviewing doctors.  Oh well.  I'm sure everything will fall into place.  Hopefully. 

 

Lately I have felt like a gorilla.  It was the funniest thing.  I was sitting on a low stool and had my arms hanging down between my legs.  Chase and I started laughing because I looked like a gorilla the way I was sitting with my HUGE belly.  We both think this state of obesity is hilarious.  I weigh more than him now.  It's great.  It doesn't help that he keeps running these triathalons and getting all muscular. 

 

 



Chase and I have been trying to get out a lot more because we have heard how hard it is to get out when you have a baby.  Yesterday we went to the beach and just sat on a blanket for a couple of hours until the sun set.  It was pretty amazing.  I totally recommend it.  Did you know our anniversary was last week?  How hilarious is that that I am almost 9 months pregnant and having my first anniversary?  Oh well.  We LOVE surprises. 

I want my tummy back!!

Hyperventilating and a little nesting

I got a new job.  I'm working at Hinzman and Associates and they were kind enough to give me a job even though I'm the "large marge" prego lady and pretty pathetic to say the least.  Finding a job here has been such a struggle!  I can't tell you how many interviews I've had.  At first I would try to hide the belly but after a few months I had to tell the interviewers that I would be having a baby in May which pretty much says "I'm only useful to you for a few months and then I'm splitting."  I'm grateful to be pregnant but geez, it is hard to find a job.  I feel totally handicapped!  Hinzman hired me just for tax season which is perfect because Sadie is coming right after that.  My fancy shmancy BA from the University of Utah got me a job filing papers, and mailing the said papers to clients.  I feel super special!!  The best part about the job search was being told I couldn't be a teller at a bank because I didn't have previous experience.  So they're telling me that the teenager behind the counter is a better candidate because he's had two months of experience?  RIDICULOUS!

 

This job is actually WAY better than my last one (that fired me because I was pregnant...I should sue) because I'm actually pretty busy. This CPA firm is very busy and they keep me quite occupied most of the time. The only problem is that even though I graduated from college, the high school teller at the bank is probably more dependable because he doesn't have a baby inside sucking all his brain cells out.  They call it "pregnancy brain" and I've got it!! Oh well, I'm pretty used to feeling "out of it" these days.  I can't count the times I have had a dyslexic moment or said something totally stupid.  Sometimes when I am trying to say one sentence, even a short one, it takes me like thirty seconds to get my thoughts organized.  This drives Chase crazy, he will always do these hand motions implying that I need to "keep it coming, spit it out", or "any time now."  The worst is that I've heard that I don't regain my lost or "stolen" brain cells.  I will just get dumber with every pregnancy, however I think I've decided this will be the last one for a very long time.  As of today the 20th of March, I never want to be pregnant again! But don't let my woes of pregnancy scare you.  There have been some wonderfully spiritual times as well that I wouldn't give up for anything.  It's amazing to have a growing human being living inside of you...INCREDIBLE!!! 

 

So I was reading my weekly update email from Pregnancy Weekly and they had a whole article on labor and delivery.  I was also reading about this in my "What to Expect When You're Expecting" book. I was at work and started to hyperventilate.  I seriously couldn't breath!  I know it's good to be informed but I have never been one for pain, needles, or blood and was a sorry sight in front of my computer.  Here I am at work, breathing quite heavily with tears in my eyes every time I read about "holding your baby for the first time" or "hearing the baby's first cry after the mucus is cleaned out of her nostrils and stuff."  I'm actually getting pretty emotional right now just typing this.  If y'all thought I was an emotional wreck before, you should see me now.  It's insane.  I can't believe what I will cry over.  I cry if Chase leaves me for five minutes to take a shower.  I made the mistake of watching Life is Beautiful when it appeared on television.  No one was around so I could cry as loud as I wanted to and I'm sure the neighbors heard me.  I just couldn't control myself.  So lets just say I am in a state of terrified bliss if that is at all possible to explain.  I am so excited but absolutely freaked out.  That would explain the hyperventilation mixed with tears.  Geez, all those years of studying human behavior have totally paid off!  I must be some sort of genius that I just diagnosed my own freaking problem. 

 

So yesterday was my 1st wedding anniversary and because it was a Sunday, Chase and I decided to celebrate the night before by going to the symphony.  I forgot how much I love getting all gussied up and going out on the town.  San Diego is so charming at night and being in Symphony Hall was just what I needed to feel a little less frumpy with these extra 35 pounds.  It was spectacular even though Chase and I nearly fell asleep at the end because I'm prego and he ran another Iron Man that day.  We were a sad sight, I waddled in as he supported me with his limping body.  Poor kid.  It's hard to see him so fit and tan while I weigh more than him, yes that's right, I weigh more than Chase now.  That's what I get for marrying a little guy.  When we got home we turned on Frank Sinatra and danced in our living room.  It was wonderful and just proves that you don't have to have a lot of money to have a memorable anniversary.

 

 

I am in nesting mode (even though I don't feel like cleaning one bit which I've heard is one of the characteristics) and want to get everything ready for our little bundle of joy.  I've decided that I want to have diaper bags like I have purses and switch them out with whatever I'm wearing so I bought one with red in it too to wear on my red days.  Chase has a plain black one.  I guess we are all set on diaper bags.  I even got a diaper cake at my ward shower and the little diapers are so stinking cute because of their itty bitty size.  I can't get over how little they are when they are first born.  I am so excited!

 



I am going to go finish reading Baby Wise now and try to get my prego brain to understand all it's concepts.  So is it feed, sleep then wake time, or feed, wake time then sleep?  Hopefully it will all fall into place once Sadie arrives and my motherly intuition will kick in.  I hope I hope I hope. 

About the pictures.  Above is my ugly nursery because I haven't finished it.  In the picture I still have some strange things lurking around.  Like for example.  I watched someone's kid the other day and she needed to take a nap so I put a queen size bed sheet around the mattress and I just bought a crib skirt.  I'll post a picture of the finished product when it's all done.  Also don't mind the dog food looking meal I'm eating.  It's whole wheat pasta and I hate it, but it's for Sadie and all that jazz.

 

 

 

 

Baby Shower

My fantastic friends threw me a baby shower. I have to admit (and I'm already ashamed to say it) that when we found out we were pregnant one of the only reasons I was sad was because I had just moved to San Diego and didn't have any friends yet. Who would throw me a baby shower?

I had this vision of how it would be to be pregnant. Picking out clothes, shopping for nursery items and having a big baby shower thrown my bosom buddies of course.

We are so ridiculously poor that shopping for outfits for Sadie will probably result in a trip to the thrift store, and nursery items will definitely be coming from Craig's List. I have however been fortunate enough to make some AMAZING friends here in San Diego. In the short time we've been here we really feel like we have family around us. We love our game nights and Sunday dinners and everyone here is so fun.

Lilly, Brandi, Andrea and Angelica all helped with the shower and it was so fun. I told them I was totally over the color pink for girls so they made it a red themed party and everyone wore red. It was awesome and I feel so loved. Thanks again girls!!

Belly Heavy

I am finally starting to show and I guess I am one of those women that likes to show it off. It could have been going back for seconds at Thanksgiving or that the baby has finally decided to grow. Happy days are here again because I'm not sick anymore.
Hopefully Jer is feeling better as well. We both had an interesting time in Florida battling the nausea and finding any food that seemed remotely appetizing while Chase and Chris ran the Ironman.


We had a wonderful Thanksgiving. Chase and I invited a bunch of people from our ward to come over including the missionaries. It was a blast! All the girls spent the whole day cooking while their hard working husbands watched the Broncos defeat the Cowboys... Broncos.. Broncos...Broncos!!!


We are grateful for many things this year. We have each other, a little healthy Zygote, and Chase fond a job! Cate made the proposal that we finish the Book of Mormon by the end of the year and Chase and I were still in 1 Nephi. We rallied and we are almost done with Alma after having to read about 10 pages a day. We didn't want to be the only Cannon's not participating. We have already seen the blessings come. Chase got a job yesterday clerking for a law firm pretty close to our apartment and I have finally found permanent work as well. Hooray!!!

Speaking of protruding bellies, we find out soon what we will be having. I actually really want a girl and I know I will be a tad bit sad to find I am having a boy but he'll be the coolest boy ever!!! Chase thinks there is a boy in there because only a triathlete (like him) could survive the birth control. I find out in ten days and I can hardly wait. I did some old wive tale tricks and they say I am having a girl. If you hold a necklace with a heavy metal object on the end above you belly button as you lay down and it stars to make clockwise motion, you are having a girl. If it goes counterclockwise, you are having a boy. Mine went clockwise. It's all very fun, but my doctor laughed at me when I told her my tricks. I would KILL to find out what I am having right now. Patience, patience. I want to start shopping!!! (Forget that we are dirt poor for just a second:-) Gotta love being in law school and prego all at the same time!

Greetings from San Diego

Chase and I have moved from one paradise to another. It was sad leaving Huntington Beach. We surfed almost every night. Took walks on the beach, went to the parades and pretty much had an extended honeymoon in our little PCH shack.
Good times. Chase was accepted to law school in Syracuse, Washington and San Diego. We weren't willing to give up the sun quite yet so we chose San Diego. It's pretty much awesome but we don't live on the beach anymore and that's kind of a drag.
I will miss the sunsets, Main Street, Wahoos, Sugar Shack, and the beach!! I won't miss the Harley Davidson's, drunk guys all around us, not being able to park in front of my house, the ants and sand in our house, and not having appliances (dishwasher, washer and dryer). It's been a fun four months!!

Chase and I are very happy down here in San Diego. However, the job search has been quite a challenge. Maybe I am just too picky, but I haven't been able to enjoy any position I've applied for. I've gone from marketing, to editing, to being a loan officer and today I had enough of trying to help people that don't really need to re-finance their home. Anywho, I start a new search tomorrow and am excited to see what happens next. It's been quite an adventure already.


I transferred from the Williams Sonoma at South Town Plaza to the one here in Fashion Valley. As for the Williams Sonoma down here it's really different. It's a much smaller store and the people aren't as friendly. I work from time to time but have told the manager that I need to find a full time job. The woman in charge of visuals here is so weird. I don't think she knew I was coming because when I arrived for my first day of work, she seemed really threatened and has been defensive ever since. Stephanie had a much different way of doing visuals and I learned her way and I like her way. So I do the visuals the way I was trained to do so at South Coast. The lady here goes back and changes everything I do. We don't have pictures for all of our features so we have to be creative. I guess she just doesn't like my creativity.



Now, I am usually not one for revenge but I was a little offended and still stand firm in that I was doing as I was trained to do in a much larger and higher volume store. So when Diana does a feature I go back and change it to the way Stephanie would like it. I chuckle when I think of her face when she discovers my magic. I know, it's not a very christian thing to do, but I couldn't help myself. I just hate to think that the company is paying us to do each feature twice. What a waste of time!!


Anywho, the most shocking news I have is that Chase and I just found out on Labor Day that I am pregnant!!! I know...total shock to us all. Warning, birth control doesn't always work. Use it religiously when you get married but I can't guarantee anything. I happen to be in the 1% that can get pregnant on birth control. 99% effective my eye. Well, we are actually really really excited. I just can't believe it. When we first found out I cried for about a week. I was wanting to wait another three years until Chase graduated from Law School. It just wasn't part of the plan. However, I had my first doctor's appointment today and after hearing the heartbeat and seeing the peanut size fetus living inside me, I wept and repented for not being more grateful for such a heavenly gift. We are now very excited but still a little worried about how I am going to provide for our family while Chase is in school. I guess we'll just have to really take advantage of student loans. It's going to be great. My Dad always said that if you don't have challenges, then you aren't growing. So we are taking this experience as one of life's lessons.

I haven't even finished writing my thank you letters for the wedding. I hate these things so badly right now I want to spit on them. Luckily Chase and I know each other so well that this will not interfere with our "getting to know you" stage of marriage. I have thought about it a lot. I don't really want to be a old mom anyway, so it's about time. Like I said before, we just weren't expecting this. I had an ultrasound the other day and heard the little peanut's heartbeat again. I of course wept all over the place.

I already love the little guy/girl so much I can hardly stand it. I don't however love how sick the little one is making me. It is so bad. I am losing a ton of weight because nothing is appetizing to me. Even Cosi bread sounds disgusting. It is the weirdest thing. I have to force feed myself and it's not pretty. Sometimes I dry heave. I would love any advice on how to battle off morning sickness. My doctor says it's a good sign that I am so sick because that means the baby is healthy and doing well. AHHHH!!! I can't believe I'm pregnant.

Despite the fact that I am hardly the woman Chase married 6 months ago (more like a sickly, crazy, emotional lunatic), Chase and I are actually really excited and thrilled that we are going to be parents. Hopefully I can hold out as long as possible so Chase can take his finals at the beginning of May. I am due May 6th. Great time to be pregnant I must say. I haven't overheated yet and San Diego is so pleasant all of the time. I'll let you know ASAP when I find out what I am having. I hope it's a girl because Emily can send me all of Ruby's hand me downs. We are dirt poor so we'll take anything at this point:-) Here's to Zygote #1. That's what we've named it:-)